||[Jul. 18th, 2004|01:01 am]
Have not update for a long time ever since work started. Is one hell of a busy but yet not busy place. The working hours are long and tiring. At the end of the day, you only wanna sleep and be left alone. You do not feel like doing any other thing. Not even exercising or running.... It just seems so tiring at times....
Sigh... Everyone seems so busy over his or her thing. Miss someone a lot... As compared to last time, have not been seeing someone as much as last time. Feel that I have neglected someone a lot, guilty and feel sad at times. At times, even when chatting on phone together, I feel irritated at times cos is been a long tiring day and really tired. Feel bad if someone ever feel I blow my temper. Sorry!
There is so much catching up to do at work. The things are new and hard to digest. Worst of all, it is dry and most of time, you feel like sleeping after poring throught the stuff.
In less than a day time, I would have lived 1/4 of a century ( familar line hehe from ChungKing Express). I looked back and probably want just someone to be with on that special day... If not, just wanna be left alone very much. I dunno why. But whenever my birthday is coming, my mood swings a lot and is very bad at times. I think there must be some hormonal problem with me. This period of time, I feel especially depressed and sad.... and I have no idea why... That is all for an update for now. Wonders when I will be free enough to do an update.