||[Jan. 20th, 2004|11:53 pm]
The moment when I handed the thesis, a huge sigh of relief overcame me.... At that moment in time, I can only feel that I can get to enjoy my Chinese New Year....
But then, when this big burden is suddenly off your mind, there seems like you have nothing to hold on to.
At that moment in time, I come to realise that I lost a lot of things in the process. That feeling of hurt was numbed by the very burden of the thesis...Working so hard has the effect of numbing everythign away, the pain and sorrows were only to be burdened with the things on my mind... For once, when u have a goal in mind, working towards it makes you focused and fixed. The moment that goal seems off, you start to feel restless and lost. Walking down Orchard today, the feeling of lost overcame me. At a point in time , I feel like sitting down to cry... It is only when u realise it migh tnot be worth it to cry over it that u feel like walking on again.