||[Feb. 8th, 2007|09:25 am]
|||||Irritating sounds of pp discussing tutorial on train||]|
A usual morning train ride would include me sleeping and ignoring everyone else beside me. In particular, I could not fall asleep for that ~. 45 min train ride. My mind was hyperactive despite having dose myself with antibiotics, cough syrup and whatever I can use to eliminate that void in me. I started smsing pp for lunch and dinner. To fill up that kind of feeling. There is so much I wanted to tell some of my friends but something inside me is pulling me back. I guess over the years, I have become more and more antisocial. I missed the feeling of getting to dine with my close friends and talked innocently about anything. Working life, r/s kind of drive us all apart to a degree that whatever we converse is oh how is work ... so on and forth. I know strictly what I desire at the end of the day. I dun think I am uncomfortable with who I am. Is just that I am uncomfortable with what people will perceive.
I dun think that I wanna tell everyone in the f**king world that hey I am AJ if that is what is perceived as uncomfortable.