||[Feb. 22nd, 2007|12:29 am]
I finally met up my ex colleague, so call my supervisor for my first job for a rather rush lunch. Chatted about where I am going and when, how come so fast, why leave the previous one and so on.
Then she asked me one question which kinda hit me hard.
J: So will anyone miss you when you are over there for so long?
I hesitated and looked away.
Me: I dun think there is any.
J: You sure a not?
Me: Prob my parents. That is all. No one else.
Deep down in my heart, there probably will be one or two. Who they are, I dun think I noe. Sometimes, people will only miss you when u are gone for a long time. Sometimes, they dun cos your presence probably dun matter much.
All these lunch and dinner meetup just made me feel more and more down. Everytime I say good bye and all the stuff, my heart just sank more. I dunno what is in store for me there. For good or worse, I wun noe. I cannot even dare to think of what is happening next.